February 5, 2002

[General] Well, I have decided after

Well, I have decided after one night that 12-hour overnight shifts suck.

I got home this morning around 10AM, still completely wired. I played Internet for a while and read some not too bad fan fiction while I was waiting for John to get up (he had been at work till 4AM) and then I went to bed. I guess that was around 11:30. I think that I fell asleep almost immediately, because when the phone rang 2 hours later, I thought that it had been about 10 minutes.

Now, I was asleep in the guest room, rather than in our room. The reason for that is that when John got home, he discovered that one of the cats had puked all over the bed. John loves the cats, but he doesn't clean up after them. He had left the mess for me. I stripped the bed and threw the sheets in the washer before snuggling into the bed in the back guest room. Because the back of the house faces some direction which gets tons of afternoon sun, I woke up about 3 hours later, bathed in sunlight and really, really warm. I got up, opened a window and retrieved my little black sleeping mask from my nightstand. I crawled back into the guest bed...

And was completely stymied in my attempts to sleep.

This doesn't make sense. I slept about 7 hours on Sunday night and about 2 hours Monday afternoon. I worked a 12-hour shift Monday night. I should be completely exhausted. Why can't I sleep?

Of course, it's now 1:30 in the morning and I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open. The rest of this shift is going to be interesting.

OK, to continue from yesterday, I am still really conflicted about what to do about my friend. I have spend a lot of time thinking about it. Do I want to try and talk with him about this? Does he deserve a chance to explain his feelings in a setting less intimidating than a flame war? Is there anything that he could say to me that would make me feel better? Is he worth the time that it would take for me to adequately explain why he's being perceived as a bad guy?

Jerry thinks that there is no purpose to be served. In most cases, unless they have a profound personal experience (child or sibling coming out, for example), adults aren't going to change their minds about things that are so ingrained. If I tell this guy about my own experience, how egotistical is it to think that that can make a difference in his life, in his perspective? And yet, how can I not try? How can I sit here and let him be a bigot and not even say, Jesus Christ, dude! Do you get that you're a bigot? :) At the very least, I want him to know that I am going to make a Lamda Legal Defense Fund donation in his name. :)

Posted by Lori at February 5, 2002 7:48 AM